Wow… It feels like months on this path when really it’s been just a couple weeks at most. I feel stronger and stronger each day. I have moments when I think I’m stronger than I really am, so I have to pace myself and take one day at a time. Before I started this journey I thought my biggest problems would come from making poor food choices or falling off the wagon. The reality is that my biggest headaches on this journey have been the relationships in my life that have changed.
I must admit at times I feel a bit cheated or fooled, I can’t quite find the words on this one. The people who I thought would be the most supportive have become the most distant or the most annoying people in my life now. When I’m at my worst these people complained and now I’m working on a better me and they still find something to complain about. I’m screwed either way!
Sad but true these people should have never been so close. I have come to the realization that these people loved me at my worst because misery enjoys company. I am simply no good to miserable people when I’m at my best.
I am thankful for God in my life as it makes my journey that much easier and comforting. Some doors are closing behind me and as I move forward new ones are opening. Of course it doesn’t make it any easier because a part of me is grieving a loss. Definitely I have some more progress to make and I’m confident that I will get it somewhat straight.
I am who I am and that’s all I have to offer is myself. Take it or leave it! I won’t any longer be that nice person who accepts less than my best. I also won’t be that person who hides behind an ugly exterior to stay protected.
So as I close the doors behind me I step into new doorways with my eyes wide open!
I’m looking forward to the new week. Peace and love to all!